A Bittersweet Beauty of Love, Loss and Lonelyness

                  Working for the National Health has given cause for understanding. The so called "Psychic" in me Knows about the beauty of living. After my separation, fifteen years transpired where time went on without me. Nostalgia is a very painful healing. And yet my love of life with loss and letting go has only strengthened me. Dearest June, "We Love You." Art by June "Moon" Hanson. junemoon.com

Straddling A Digital Divide "And from the many, we learn as one."

                             This is my Social Experiment. I'm measuring time sensitive dissemination rates for new information released into the internet.

      My 1st. Base Case Assertion is me of course and my research;
                              I test for the discontinuous non linear value jumps accelerating into the dispersion rates of my identifiable personally projected social media.
                              I test for your enjoyment by watching your feedback and engagement. Simple.
                              I've screened myself out of almost all high rankings in S.E.O.s. Dropping my web ranking to as close to the bottom as I can.
                              I am just an Entertainment Medium only.
                           
      & the 2nd.) Maybe, just for now, you still don't want to read me yet. But eventually, maybe word of mouth may help to bring many of you back again.  {Organic Dispersal}
                              I am just another Free Magazine; Take what you want, and respect the rest.                                           Pass any of it along. Please! Where are you people? Can you see an opportunity here? For now, You probably still don't.
                              It's the free thing, isn't it? That's the way I designed it. It is inaccessible. {Thank you Google.} Nobody wants to read the unfamiliar, the unhashtagged. Where's my gimmick? Where's the handle? Where's my need to be stroked? It's just not here, is it? Look mom, no sale.
                              It's a "TRUE HOAX." And this story is about people just like you, people who can tell stories that come true. Don't you want to play? I know you want to. I will get to be your reader for today. But I hope you will find that your work here is interesting for you. I would hope I can be little entertaining. By refreshing your interests, this story has been always about you and just you. You are the subject of inquiry.
                             "And from the many, we learn as one."
                              And If you like, you are very, very welcome. Share only what you want, give only the best of what you have to offer, and leave only that by which you want to be remembered.

      & 3rd.) As always, Thank you all so much. In Advance.

What My Blog Is Saying About My Readers.

                  Although most of the traffic to my blog is completely anonymous, there are untraceable randomly assigned user ID numbers. More interesting is all of the traffic I get through Referring Sites which I can access though my blog stats. These are generally from very interesting unexpected blog sites for everything from Russian Poetry groups, the Yandex search engine {the Russian Google}, to even English Lessons from a Middle Eastern educator, down to an actual Right Wing think tank. Though often they are exactly what they appear to be, most of the less interesting sites are just fronts for false "Hidden" Referring URLs, usually from PREMIUMHOOKUPS. {A marketing website for the Russian Porn Mafia.} If you've seen my writings on "Subtext" and legitimized "Surveillance," I've been recording many of the unbelievable oddities of my blogs readership and it's unique if not very peculiar support. My watchers knows I'm watching them too. Were it not for their interest during my first year I would have had almost no traffic at all. Much to their credit we have one thing in common. And that's interest in the dissemination of information. One of the most important aspects of my online profile is in projecting a meaningfully Viable Presence. Now as a well trained professional "Psychic Medium" I not only have to be a conscientious "Lie Detector," but I'm also prepared to know if and when I too am lying. As a writer most of my best stories are completely incredible and as a result I must be very circumspect about bullshit being just more bad art. I must always challenge my assertions and be prepared to admit to being wrong by willingly testing out each of my predictions.

                   I myself don't like being wrong very often, but "Enquiring minds do want to know." What the heck is going wrong? Is there anything that can be done? If "Trumpenstein" hadn't failed to set himself up as the media darling for the now supposedly disenfranchised White Male, I wouldn't need to be providing the Alternative Perspective, which is more important now than ever. If I can generate real buzz in the Ukraine and especially in Russia, (second and third after the U.S. in total blog views,) then maybe I too may have a real responsibility to continue exploring my ever expanding sphere of media influence. My own predicted "True Hoax" is actually coming true. I'm telling stories that really are coming true. Now most of us bloggers don't ever reach any real kind of notoriety, but for those of us that do, it can be very rewarding. For example, the BUSINESS INSIDER blog, became a lucrative second job for an influential trader who was fined 4 million dollars for issuing false stock tips, punitively banning him from the trading floors. Likewise, politicians can often get paid much more as lobbyists and authoritative experts, even after professional term limits push them out of office. Now of course, speaking as the retired, most low rent of all the so called psychic mediums, my track record is known to only me and my clientele. But my profile and it's content has already generated a rather conspicuous, if only virtual Code Halo. Generating ripples out into the burgeoning world of influence peddling, is a game of high finance in a world of "Speculations Industries" in general. No one wants to listen to a nobody for now, until everyone else is wanting to too. And as we have now seen, today's LYING SELLS, even when people should know better. Maybe we really do need Bullshit Artists, to knowingly help discredit all these very predictable liars.

                   The most fascinating part of of blogging is you, my audience of course.

My Interview With a Psychic; ppireadings.blogspot.com

Session 3

3-17-09

(Bill) I remember a discussion we had over a decade ago about the true nature of lying. I still remember that conversation because I was freeing myself from a web of lies at the time. What do you remember?

(Phillip) No, I vaguely remember something…

(Bill) For me, what you had said, that lying reflects back on the liar primarily and that self deception occurs even in the most innocent of white lies, was quite poignant.

(Phillip) What it is that we avoid is often at the core of what it is we need. People are never more evasive than when we feel threatened. Lying is usually only a deception to one’s self. Most people can feel when we are lying to them, but, in extreme cases a person can lie to themselves and not even know it. This may be the law of Karma.

(Bill) Explain how what we avoid is at the core of what we need.

(Phillip) OK, the brain, or the consciousness, is designed to deal with uncertainties and the unknown, hence the fear or excitement. This is what I call the void of content. On a purely physical level, we deal with objects in place and in motion. The brain also handles information in the same way. The conscious act of deception always requires more energy to manage these uncertainties. This is why lies catch up to us: because they are exhausting.

(Bill) That makes sense. Trying to manage all the random possibilities that may occur in order to maintain the illusion would suck you dry. As far as being evasive when threatened, which may be very well and true, why are people so evasive all the time? Is everyone feeling threatened all the time?

(Phillip) No, not everyone is feeling equally threatened at all times. Nor is everyone equally evasive. One of the most significant aspects of my research was the attempt to map the styles of evasion of individuals and their differences. I believe that our styles of evasion can be as distinctive as a finger print and that there may be a higher level of order in the net result of all of our collective differences. I believe this to be especially true as to why it is you can only fool some of the people some of the time.

This is the guts of how I do things. I’m trying to neutralize the biases about lying as thought to be always intentional or unconscious, or either good or bad. Lying doesn’t just create problems; it can also be used to solve them. This is a horrible truth and most people don’t have the guts to be honest about it. Lying is never pretty but we all have to do it sometimes.

(Bill) There’s another 800 pound gorilla in the room, the necessity to conceal through omission or falsehood in order to protect ourselves and others. I know it’s a simple example but no one wants to know how I’m really doing when they ask. It’s just a courtesy not a request for honesty. Besides, sometimes I’m protecting them and myself from discomfort by not sharing the true.

(Phillip) That’s what makes non-violence so scary. One may best defend themselves by not behaving defensively. If somebody asks how you’re doing, and you’re dying, you’ll generally be forgiven for being honest. Am I being too morbid? That was basically how I was trained. To look at fate as fate, we have to understand the circumstances that come together to mold our subconscious. We have natural limits, and death is the most obvious and the hardest one to lie about, no matter how we try to omit, evade, obscure, or spin the eventuality of death.

(Bill) We can sculpt many of the other life events or eventualities in our favor, for example I can say that my high school experience was great. You would never know I was omitting the truth. I see puberty, relationships, middle age as some of the many eventualities we cope with. Death would be the heavy one.

Yes, there are many other factors of fate other than death. People want me to show them proof and the subject of death is one thing most people agree with me about. Our limits are very well structured and defined.

(Bill) So what is fate? Is it how we deal with what has and will happen to us, meaning we have choice, or is it as my Baptist Church sees it, as static, fixed, and predetermined? The meal has been served.

There is a difference between status and fate. Status can affect your fate. Your will can affect both your status and fate, but not necessarily. For example, it is diagnostically possible to determine what a person is going to die from, as far as genetic limitations are concerned. Also for instance, do you have any bad habits, any maladaptive behaviors? You don’t need to be a psychic to see where this is going. This is the nature of our individual fate.

(Bill) Our time is up for today Phillip. I’ve got plenty more questions for you though so, see you next week.

Afterword

I Phillip and I are trying to stick to an hour or so for our blog interviews. We hoped it would encourage brevity, but with the topic of fate I think we may need to visit it a few times. I may not get to it for a few blog entries but a deeper exploration into Phillip’s take on fate may be in order.

I like his comments about fate being what we create for ourselves. If we are living a risky or unhealthy lifestyle we are indeed sealing our fate, or at least are at a higher risk based on probability. That’s a fairly down to earth message though probably not a message some of us listen to. I’ve done unhealthy and risky things in my life and though I was fully aware of the danger, I did it anyway. Still I was conscious that I was taking risks and even thought to myself, ‘am I going to get hurt this time, or, will I pay the price for this later in life?’

The other idea I was keyed to discuss is self-delusion. I was asking about lying because I sense that one of my personality drivers is the need to resist self-delusion. Lying, to me, is one of the ways we delude ourselves. If a new believable, yet false, reality can be created by omission then I can become a new person, I can convince myself I’ve started over. It was like that for me as a kid. We moved a lot and I could conveniently omit my less socially acceptable behavior from my personal story. I think, we all kind of lie to ourselves when we think we are lying to others. Maybe it does help us create a new self-perception. Was I changing my fate by living this new perception? More questions, more questions…. Every time I do this I think of more questions.

Spirit Tech University, is Looking for a Few Good Mensch

                  Spirit Tech University is presently accepting applications for our advanced classes in Complementarity. ABANDON HOPE ALL YE WHO ENTER HERE. All enrollment submissions will be reviewed by the Universe for unaffected sincerity. All false subscriptions will be scrubbed from divine records, as all attempts at falsification will be found in error of extreme petty absurdity. No one in their right mind would ever choose to master the Scientific Arts of Complementarity. Although the ability to Conjugate the Perfect Complement might seem enviable. However, anyone who actually wants to be an actual Complementarian, is usually either insane, corrupt or dangerously ignorant. Only those applicants who are motivated by a real need for themselves, their families, or their greater community will be trusted with a full complement of confidence games in their entirety. Xenophilia alone does not qualify one to be a competent confident Complementarian. Supplicants must be shielded from their own "Sins of Magnanimity." Otherwise every long suffering foolhardy social critic would clog our gracious ashrams, love hostels and other mutual support systems with gullible supplicants as well as all the other well meaning meddlesome bottom feeders obsessed with selfishly "Helping." ("The road to hell is paved with all kinds of self serving good intentions.")

                  Lorem ipsum vim ut utroque mandamus intellegebat, ut eam omittam ancillae sadipscing, per et eius soluta veritus.

The Subjunctive Conjecture; Entering The Void of Content

The Subjunctive Conjecture; Entering The Void of Content

                                         

                  I intend on proving the full range of variability in the human opinion bias. I must publish. I've discovered that no one believes the assertions of private research until it's published, for review. My "True Hoax"  tells stories that come true, it's technically Spiritual Fiction. Just like empaths are just Science Fiction. Saying it's true is just hear say. I want to appeal to you as members of a discriminating audience, I rejoin the fantasy. The subjunctive conjecture I'm making, makes it possible for me to construct such a story. A familiar childhood point of departure is, "A Person's Guess Is Always Better Than Odds Would Allow." (1st Primary Assertion of the Para Psychological Methods) From that early proposition I speculated my way into a fantastic future. Now I must go back from that future to tell you what is going to happen next.

                  As much as I like the Library Sciences, I must ask that for the time being tI'm allowed to abandon my diagnostic matrices until such time when. Society can be protected from the abuses of mind control. (Cults will be very common and popular in the future.) I try to inoculate my readers with an awareness of the inevitable responsibilities coming along with data mining and Self Surveillance. People sacrificed personal freedom and privacy without even noticing. As the psychic, I observe discreet variabilities between each person's distinctiveness. Most people are so oblivious about what I am doing, that I can mind my own business. It is far easier to exploit personal information, than it is to understand people's signature preferences, behaviors and attributes. Don't think you're turning the "Objective" microscope back toward me. I invent this method. I focus this blog from informational retrieval and processing toward that shimmering tableau that is a Gift. This story has a very happy ending, but if you have been following along, you probably already know this.

                 But as all good drama has an antagonist, we are going to offer ourselves up to the gods of mayhem. That chaos we see is our own ignorance. We look and see foolish illusions and pretenses of authoritative objectivity. There are no ultimate authorities in this tale, we are all wandering blind. "The Truth Is Out There." WE will find it.

                 I have about 24 years left, give or take a few days. So let's start there. PPIServices will have had it's rollout about three years earlier. It will have been a smash. The big handle is the extremely comprehensive P. P. I. Psychic Personality Inventory. My very user friendly soft tech applications, allow people to process their own personal diagnostic matrices. If someone wants to learn what they are probably going to die from or what their worst character defect is, we can do so at our own discretion. Using only those tests each person selects for them self, everyone's PPIReading is personally unique. There are infinite ways of reading for ones self and each other. One of the greatest advantages of using a PPIReader is that it can be done off line with only a printout score sheet and a pencil. No electronic trail is needed. All of the particulars of a persons individual Biometrics are processed independently. Using state of the art personal encryption key security systems makes your personal "Identity" just  "To Much Information." The same thing making surveillance a waste of time, now becomes our best friend. (T. M. I.) The only real limitation is your time. People will get sick of knowing everything about themselves and each other, just the way I do. Most personal information will get lost in that black hole of informational undertow. No one outside of your friends will ever care who you are. Privacy was the first casualty of the information age. Getting our privacy back is going to be quite easy, as long as we don't mind anonymity. PPIServices will make it much easier for us to know what it is, that really is nobody else's business. Let's take a look at what happens to people in the future. (Enter: The Subjunctive Conjecture.)

                  Please forgive this abrupt departure from supposed fact into spiritual fiction. I hope this is fun for you. Read on. The Surreal Novella is "The Bridge Between the Worlds; <ppireading.blogspot.com>. Remember blogs are written backwards, Start at the bottom of the archive listing.

More Fun With Google Analytics (2.0)

              With the advent of the Multi Armed Bandit method for hoarding unlimited statistical data, the pretenses of a so called objective Scientific Method may finally be put to rest. We no longer need to pretend to be objective by having predefined intentional objectives. We no longer need to put forward baseless assumptions while trying to ask any questions, before getting to see much unplanned unpredicted evidence. This freedom from expectation is very rational, while producing very desirably unexpected results.

             Now as always, when we are making Future Predictions, we will still need to test our guesses and propositions for truthful accuracy. But we can now look at vast unsegmented data sources without all the filters of expectation and preferential bias. Our projections only need to be refined. In this way we no longer need to be fitting data to match a preferred model. This is especially advantageous for me the so called "Professional Psychic." Because a statistical profiler isn't interested in proving anything other than mapping for the human variability. {Biometrics, Ergonomics, Genotyping, Physiognomy, etc.} Now I have been given a real opportunity to disassemble the MINDOB using my P.P.I. {Thats the Mutually Inclusive Negative Double Opinion Biases of our antagonistically polarized society.} {The P.P.I. is my checklist for Personal Profiling Inventory.} But when there is no real innovation to analytics, we all loose. We only need to ask to look into each others hands. The future is here. And we needn't believe in order to perceive.

             I will continue to re edit pages from my earlier documentation while clarifying previous Propositional Assertions. Much of my works will continue to feature my Ad News Journalism reports on the use and misuse of these few related applied technologies, including essays on Google, Hidden Entry URLs and Predictive Mass Media Industries in general.