Sexual Guilt and Antisocial Escapism

                   I want to be able to give you an interesting Magazine. Today I'm going to launch right into what guys never talk about.

                   Vulnerability may be cute, but most guys don't like talking about vulnerability. It's about as much fun as one of my connective tissue massages, it can hurt like hell, but you usually feel much better afterwards. In my experience, #4. "Everybody needs love," is the actual house in the sexual relation. Sorry, this one isn't mine, so don't act like you haven't experienced feeling deprived, shut out, left out in the cold. We all have. Vulnerability can be very cute, but it also can be very pathetic.

                   When we as young men need to confront our feelings of responsibility, a certain amount of sexual guilt is inevitable. It amazes me when enlightened women with whom I've had the privilege of dating are surprised to discover that sexual guilt is not all that uncommon amongst men. I have seen men like me, who were capable of evil, who of necessity must also wrestle demons of hideous proportion.

                   In confronting my own recovery, I've learned to benefit from advanced alternative medical resources available to our general society. (Some much better than others.) Knowing the human social psyche in honest detail is considered both dangerous and socially unwelcoming. I have an immense responsibility not to take my good fortune for granted. As my skill set and associated available resources have come together, I'm confronted with the need for almost total anonymity. Intimacy must be with exceptional people of exceptional understanding. I've come to understand the latent schizophrenia that seems to be synonymous with the modern success profile. See if you also like this?

                   Virtue is very sexy and integrity is totally hot. (Forbidden Fruit?) I personally believe that integrity has always been the point of our shared historical regard for the sanctity of innocence. Vulnerability may be a sign of really good character. It is the unexpectedness of integrity that is redeeming. People try to talk about their honor. Reputation is not the same thing as personal integrity. Honor is usually nothing more than the perversity of a mob will. Families should not seek to punish there daughters for the sins of the fathers. Nations should not criminalize "Victimless Crimes." Banks should pay for the mistakes. Appearances are often nothing more paranoid illusions. "He who is without sin, be the first to cast the stone." Most guys want to believe, I am good people.

                    Senseless vices and hedonism have possessed our death obsessed popular culture, (nothing new here.) We must collectively be witness to this mass inoculation of society with the pretense of soulless sex. More business as usual. I'm not above wanting to have sex. Neither am I opposed to abstinence. But some of us guys are really sensitive about what it is women really have to go through. No pity. But I think a lot of us guys really would rather be bachelors, than have to worry about hurting anyone else. You may be too good for me. You may be better than me. (Anyone who meets my standards is too good for me.) I believe reticence is definitely called for. A little dispassion, a little reason, it's a good thing. I want to be able to let people love me as I see necessary. Why am I being singled out as the heavy just cause I actually like the female brain. Very much. I actually like people and I actually am un afraid of letting myself unconditional love any body. Being happy and healthy is even more dangerous than being sick and depressed all the time. (Run away, run away.) Such are the pains of the true ZENOPHILE.

To Go Where No Language Has Gone Before

                   Hello again, I will be your reader again today. I hope that we have been able to make your journey as enjoyable as possible for you. Beings as our work together entails having us both step outside of the normally mundane, your comfort zones are redefined.

                   As I never really know if a reading is going to be accurate, I like to approach this process with you with respect and friendliness. Any one who watches me work with someone, as a reader or as a therapist, sees me as I see myself. There is always room for change and growth but I'm always willing to admit to being subjective. The abandonment of any pretense of objectivity forces me to work much harder at paying attention to each and every person I am working with.

                   The peculiarities of this kind of directed attention qualifies me as a working transitional intimate. I make rather tasteless fun of the fact that my job is a little like prostitution, namely, the more I charge, the more money I make. I don't really care that much for money itself. But I am acutely aware of my desire to get paid well for an honest living. I often get rid of customers by slashing my prices. Every one wants to be recognized, and some people already have a gross sense of entitlement. If I don't play the money game, egotists are repulsed. I've lost more than a couple of good friends from not kissing butt. Yes, they really were my friends, good people of solid character. And yes, they are egotists, and yes, they judge my so very harshly when I don't play hard to get. Their loss. I don't miss people, I lovingly let them go.

                    It's interesting that the final frontier lies just outside the realm of attachment.

Cracking the Myth of Death

                   Life and death are not separate, they are not unconnected things that exist independently.

                   This miracle of life is given meaning, by death. Without death, life would be interminable.

                   The people we love are never really gone as long as we remember them.

                   Grieving is sometimes very healthy, and more than forgivable, but don't overdo it.

                 

The Readers Credo

                   I am only the reader. Thou shalt not spill!

                   Reading is my job. The Audience is Sacred!

                   I will read it for you. NEVER PLAY DOWN TO YOUR AUDIENCE.

                   You will read me too. And yes, they will be coming for me.

My Heartiest Thanks

                   I want to thank everyone up to this point. All of you who have been reading me, are yourselves becoming readers. The the tradition of readers is preserved.

Test Post # 13 Read me

Sunday, November 24, 2013

What Did You Do With Mr. Nice Guy

                   Before we look back in on Vera to see what she does with my body, let me give you a little of the future "New History."

                   This is one of those horrible opportunities to heal that painful rift inside of me. I've always kept my inner business man chained up in my inner basement. Vera wants me to change the past by not writing it in the first place. All I have to do is fail. It's said you can't change the past, I don't want to change it anyways. Because I had arranged for this alternate timeline, all I had to do is step over this new event horizon and leave my friends behind. I'm my own best friend anyways. Much to the objections of my shadow self, I forced the inner me out of the cozy basement where he was happy all alone causing harm to no one. When I released my manuscripts into the world, that brilliant wedge of "Complementarity" was a bombshell that exploded the popular myth of "IRRECONCILABLE DIFFERENCES." People now days in the future can't say they don't understand. The vehicle of "Social Recursion" makes it impossible to lie about mutually assured differences. Cults now days are honored concessioneers of the practical fix. Here in the future we don't need to waste time on attachments anymore, no matter what we're doing. Love is love, and if things work out great. Soft spiritual technologies have finally caught up with the rest of modern life.

                    But the first casualty of my radical "Reversal" of temperament  was my outworn better nature. I still have great empathy but I haven't been any fun for a long time. This is why my personal inner business man wanted to stay submerged in secure solitude. I was very happy hiding behind the designation of being seriously mentally ill. As long as our society devalued the place of hidden disabilities in shaping and informing the publics shared views, I was a pleasant nobody. Now my face is recognized the world over. I've become just another popular schmuck. Very few people understand my research even today. But it reveals and provides for a better shared existence for everybody. But had I been more normal, there was too great of a chance that the mass proliferation of practical spiritual technologies would have never been accessible to the popular culture. My work, as I had expected, proved to be most needed by intelligent and elite people in positions of power and influence. There was too great a chance that the world would have finally come to an end, had I not published my work. Boy, this book looked really stupid when I first wrote it.

                    It doesn't seem that crazy now here in the future, as it has become one of many useful practical manuals for thought mapping in neuro physics. Society had to catch up, and it has, and it started with popular media. I felt so bad for my friends. They knew me as just being pleasantly insane. But just like my own inner businessman, my friends too had to get out of their own way if they wanted to succeed. The irony is, by taking this most trivial, but most heavily prejudiced subject of psychic reading, and turning it into a lifeline for the 21st century, I won.

                   I'm beginning to think maybe Vera and the other coverts are trying to get me to jump so as to make me look crazy. It would be much easier for them to blame me for the corrupted social programming, from the very beginning. It has always been much easier to market the mystique of rapid conversion, than it is to help everyone to be knowledgeably proactive about everyones own personal responsibility. The "Vision Quest" has always been fraught with self indulgent disincentives.

                   I refocus and notice Vera's still growling. I think she recognizes that I'm not impressed by the spiritual abuse and meta speak. I'm sheepishly smiling. It's breaking the tension. She says, "What?" "You're not convinced?" "Your useless, I'm going to let you talk to Terry now." "I think you need to be taught a lesson." She taps a panel on her desk. "Mr. Johnson is ready for his closeup." Then she says, "Don't try to move, you've been compromised." "If you try to get up now, you'll fall, and I don't want to have to clean up your  mess." " I have to leave because you stink." I didn't think she cared.

The Wisdom of Privilege

                   Beings as we are calling out all the hidden corners of our boundaries and barriers, I must confess to why someone like me is doomed to succeed. "The wisdom of privilege demands that I speak out." "The unbroken chain of affirmation is the guaranty of success." "Spiritual Isostasy is the balance between gravity and light." And so on.

                   Looking at the analysis and research of a Para Psychological Method comes down to a process of boundary definition. These awarenesses do not come from nowhere to now here. There is a distinct series of spiritual and religious traditions that have brought us this possibility of transcendence. The question remains, "What does it all mean?" My approach of the ever changing opinion bias has provided us with a clear understanding of where the doubt in question remains. Beings as I'm not interested in taking sides I'm blessed with the overwhelming advantage of a "Self Doubting Psychic." I am a spiritual machine.

                   This privilege allows me unimagined freedom when it comes to the power of inquiry, that power to ask meaningful questions for which we can get answers.  Mathematics, History, Sociology, Human Relations, most people understandably give up on any hope of getting clear perspective on the total volume of information that shapes our lives. Faith itself is an exercise in rational detachment.

                   As I said in the first page of this magazine;    Monday, Apr. 8th, 2013

Dearest reader,
     This is my labor of love to be able to bring you my life's work in it's present state.

      I am a pro psychic. I have in a life's research a great hoard of resources. I will present simple techniques for ordering and understanding most, if not all forms of divination, in terms of games and systems analysis. The concepts, I want to be easy and intuitive.

     I would like to apologize in advance, to all those who will object to mapping and graphing of the things so sacred as the human soul and human interaction. But as is intrinsic to human nature, we are creatures who look for order and meaning.

     I hope you will find the tour of artifacts and antiquities fun and informative. I encourage readers credit for having their own opinions. And please do not expect that you will always agree with my interpretations or analysis. My intent is to analyze data, not people.

     Let us begin.

     Many years ago I started writing, "The Confessions of a Professional Psychic." I've decided that the information I can provide is much more important than autobiography.

     As a new beginning I have embarked on the project of;           
            Enumerating the parts of the Spiritual Technologies, and the Coalescing of the Sum of the Comparative Analogies.
    
     I am writing as an act of faith, as a scientist and as a sensitive. Most of the provided information I intend will be self explanatory. However, it will be the scope of the analysis I would hope is most useful in sharing what we do as psychics, and why we can do it at all.
    
     Biases and beliefs aside, I haven't assumed that I know how this one is going to turn out as a literary project. But I know for myself as a researcher my work is to entertain, inform and provide.

     It is my privilege to listen, your wish, (for information) is my command. 

Symbol Identification and the Packaging of Meaning

                   My propositions on Art as Pre Language are the result of my analysis of Symbol Identification. What we call language is culture. Data is transferred by packaging meaning, we use Symbols for Identification. Those little encapsulated cellular partitions that we put on what we want to say, make for separate data chunks, sometimes we can even use just a number to designate the desired message we want to communicate. Each little package should have it's own intended address. Art is also a communicating Social Medium and I still say, "Art may predate language as the first symptom of a sentient (Self Aware) "Man."

                    In order to make sure that this message gets to the right readers I need to make sure my writing is good enough to be interesting for a discriminating audience. Art is an Object Oriented Language. It is central to a well executed inquiry into the social dynamics of influence. The dissemination of new information requires that I get to the point. Directly. It is language that is, by technical subject, heavily sub sectioned. The essentials of language are always reducible by symbol, Prime Roots. Tracing the origins of a word or symbol is like factoring a composite number.

                  The rarified awarenesses I use is as a professional psychic. This has brought to me accept things like basic moral sensibilities and our own individual critical sensitivities. I'm now able to name many of these things for which there were no names. Giving voice to this immense body of research, perfectly qualifies me to found a "GUARDIAN FELLOWSHIP." The overwhelming majority of what I've written to date will not make sense until it is already accepted by many other reputable independent researchers that will probably know nothing about me or my work. Therefore because I've invested so much of my time documenting these finding without any backing, I will get to see the transformative influences of these newer languages as they first emerge, just as I am predicting. Because of the huge scale of these of problem sets, any presumptions on my part at this time are a pointless waste of time. The greater content is well getting done, and in a very timely fashion.

                 For my work to now arrive at it's new required destination, I must design the perfect symbolic packaging. If I can't recognize what this is, then I'm wasting time. I believe, that with effort, a personally meaningful symbol can be packaged with the clarity of a perfect family jewel. I would hope that ultimately, the nature of my work will become as easy to read as a beautiful painting, with all the lyrical and narrative expressiveness of the experience clearly rendered by art.

                   Cyclical Maturation, Sensitive Emotional Boundaries, Changing Personal and Public Opinion Biases: All of these things will be much better understood and the languages of Self Defined Social Boundary Definitions will become much more common place. Social Intelligence will start to catch up with technology. Re Socialization will become a form of recreation, normal for everyone without any of the inconvenience of having to use the internet. People will want to enjoy the quality of their lives for the true symbolic value of what living can mean to each and everyone of us.

                   Symbol Identification will largely take the place of status in dating and business because without the necessary symbol "Code," people will simply remain anonymous. Packaging message communications will help to relieve this backlog of unexpressed feelings and perceptions as well as unexpressed expectations. I know this sounds like hear say at this point, but it wouldn't be a good prediction if I only told you what you already think. Watch for improvements in peoples assertiveness.

Test Post # 12 Boundaries of Your Dyad

Tuesday, August 27, 2013

Boundaries of Your Dyad

                         Having great reception is a lot like being a concessioner. A "Transactional Analysis or "Games Theory" allows for modeling human relations as business. Mutual benefit is at the core of all intentional dyads. (Dashboard Dictionary;

                           dyad |ˈdīad|

                           noun technical

                           something that consists of two elements or parts : the mother–child dyad.

                           • Mathematics: an operator that is a combination of two vectors.

                           • Chemistry: a divalent atom or radical.)

                         My common process of writing means after I leave the house I know what I want to write next. Next day I wait until I can see the point of what I forgot over night.

                         As stated in, "Turning to Face Your Sensitive Boundaries" May 25th, 2013, I talked about how people see differences as boundaries and barriers. These can be differences of; age, status, gender, politics, religion, language. Almost anything can seem like an insurmountable boundary, keeping people apart unable to communicate.

                         Yet, as stated, we can look at said boundary as contact. Not just one surface of separation,  but we are also seeing two sets of points of connection. Those differences act as a topological duality. Experiences and differences between different people have a language unique to each and every two people.

                         Taoism allows for a dynamic model. Communication between polarities in the most simple way means, a communicator and reception. This type of simplistic modeling over generalized is the cause of so much misunderstanding. Sexism has exploited gender politics. The male brain is not well known for linguistic sensitivity. Men through history have feared and reviled women as the source of original sin. Being not only the source of life but also the vessel of all that is tempting, has been blamed on women, as if women were innately evil.

                         Fortunately, when we talk with each other, our polarities can reverse. If I talk, you might listen. When you need to communicate, I can listen. If communication is a charge dynamic, then listening is positive reception. It's not about gender per se. It is more common with the female brain, that you will see women listening and talking simultaneously. With age, I can do this a little. But my brain has freakishly good reception for a guy. And although I must never try to multitask (one track mind,) listening is my luxurious privilege.

                         As an active communicator, I never let anyone waste my time. I believe in the sacredness of a receptive audience. I so don't want to waste your time either. Taking the initiative means I almost never expect others to understand most of what I say or do, no matter how much I want to be understood. But I do try to always make good sense.

                         Having great reception is a lot like being a concessioner. A "Transactional Analysis or "Games Theory" allows for modeling human relations as business. Mutual benefit is at the core of all intentional dyads.

Sensitive Boundaries and Changing Opinion Biases, A Naked Singularity

                   As a Sensitive, understanding Social Boundaries is everything. My integrity is the only thing that is not repairable.

                   As our opinions change, so does the surface of our "Self Identifying Boundary Definitions." We all have these changes of emotion, experience, a shifting frame of reference. The language of changing social boundaries is still a battleground, with influence.

                   As the soul proprietor of this limited liability partnership, I have the responsibility. Where does the fiction end? Will I be ready on the other side to catch this great hoard of resources pouring through from the void? I really put a lot in to this.

                   I've been leaving myself messages. I've been so glad to get them back when I need them. And now everything still goes forward. The process is another day closer to it's final conclusion.

                  I've been able to give considerable thought to our subject of changing opinion biases. Understanding and recognizing our bodies and ourselves, we have come to our base need for a social ethic. Change is inevitable. It's symbols that we hold on to. Beyond what we believe, that's my job. I get to tell stories, stories that comes true. I get paid for telling stories that come true. So far so good. How do I know? Everything in life is so delicately balanced , that even the slightest ripples can be felt between the head and the heart.

                  I call it the "Naked Singularity." It represents most wholly the true sensitive nature, subjectively and objectively. We as living animals, are very temperamental. The subtleties of human sexuality alone breeds volumes. The elephant in the room of course, is that I am given permission to look at people very close up. I'm very much appreciative of the respect people give me when they let me read them. It can be a lot of fun. There usually is some touch involved.

                  We are all "Naked Singularities." It is suggested that even an artificial intelligence may one day be able to achieve singularity,  Sentience. If machines can learn to love they will first need to trust. and to trust there must be contact, touch. This awareness is usually described as a glow or a "Light" of consciousness. My job is to make "Self Awareness" fun for you. I'm just looking at area codes. "The self is ubiquitous." (From the Upanishads)  Mutual boundaries are the new frontier. I got in.  

Test Post # 11 (A Crystalline Matrix)

Monday, November 4, 2013

A Crystalline Matrix

                   We will be looking again at the models of human diversity. Spectrums, distributions, gradients and displacements. There are many ways of mapping the variabilities of human diversity. We need not a crystal ball or a star chart to count all the ways we are distinguished. Most of the Socially Recursive varieties of personal differences are not always symmetrical: Man / Woman, Young / Old, Big / Small. And yet if we look at comparative distributions we often will find a centered mean balanced by equal sides. Now of course any of these groupings can be skewed. But we all seek balance of;
                  A. (Man to Woman)
                  B.(Young to Old)
                  C.( Big to Small)
And what is one extreme without the other. Polarity comes in many different ways.

                  If we use just these three variables, there are different ways we draw comparative analogies in the six diagnostic checklists we have been looking at;
                  1. Perceptual Ordination: Up / Down
                  2. Taoism and the I Ching:  Yang / Yin
                  3. Chinese Medical Diagnostics: Empty / Full
                  4. Astrology: Rising / Descending
                  5. Kaballa and Tarot: Wands and Swords / Cups and Disks
                  6.  Handwriting and Palmistry: Masculine / Feminine

                 Now of course we will be needing to look at much higher orders of dimension in our analytical space, but for now simple is at the core of shared meta formality. We can much further divide and order our areas of investigation. We need not be intimidated by the simple elegance of meta formal logic. We need only accept that it exists and that it has been at the core of language since the early oral traditions. We might say that the symmetry is "Local." And that the dynamics of the variables are defined by mutual exclusion. Up is not Down. Yang is not Yin. Empty is not Full and so on. As dualities these basic forms are bounded by unity. These distinctions may seem trite in regards to much finer details of variability, but as we construct much more precise terms of variability we will be glad we laid out accurate metrics for comparison. Hopefully, when we get to the rotational displacements of periodic behaviors in mass movements we may be able to make sensible predictions about individuals as well as for societies transitions.

                  As we have already seen much of these notations on "Social Valences," anticipate that the contraction of the corresponding gradient variabilities will negate and neutralize the countervailing indexing displacements. (A Lot of Data Is Redundant.) The simple language will make the more abstract mathematical language understandable. Hopefully! As always, wish me luck. I'm not quite done yet.

I Am The Art Of Living Fiction

                   Where are we right now? Am I writing about the past, or am I again living in the future writing about the present? Long ago I planted these seedlings of human understanding, and I've gotten to see them grow into mighty trees of great wisdom and beauty, and they are about to bare fruit. But I must travel into the future in order to catch those fruits which are exclusively mine, no one else will even know what to do with them. I must hurry and wait. I am sorry that I can't make any promises. I've already committed myself to a time that may never come to be. How can I ever be yours when I belong to the universe?

                  Art of Living Fiction has claimed my soul, I no longer am just another individual. I am a dream you wont remember until it is too late. A dream of ghosts and shadows, a dream of promise and wonder, of a place we've never been to, but we go there none the less. What are these words you hear echoing in your ears, in your heart, in the comfort of that restful bottom that is your shell? Why do these words still resonate with a lesson only barely grasped?

                  Let us imagine a Guardian Fellowship, a community of Patrons. I see the vacuum that is created by jailing so much of the Adult Black Male Public, generally for nothing more than three time drug offenses. It is totally disruptive to the upbringing of the next generation. We need our adult male role models. Integrity is accountability. People need to know who is trustworthy. It can be very difficult. Training in a reputable body building gym, I get to see the subtle dynamics of male socialization. That I'm also 57, I'm respected very well because of my sincere effort and outstanding results, I'm a pretty good guy. Have I said, "Everybody needs love?" (Repeatedly! #4) There is a lot of Christian body builders. We share a love for good living and hard work, (I don't, not me.) I really appreciate the sober living. And taking care of myself helps me with my recovery issues. All in all a good deal for me, and I always try to support the general welfare of our sub cult of the body.

Pressureless Informational Dust

                   This ever so elusive mystery of love resonates through everybody.

                   Singularity is only that point of being. Singularity as a separate being, is not the point of being. Everybody needs love. 4th rule.

                   It can also happen that we fall in love with learning and we are confronted with the Pressureless  Informational Dust. So much to know, so little time to share. Learning can be a very worthwhile lonely proposition. (I have you, my sacred unknown audience.)
       
                   Getting to decompress that Dust, can be very rewarding and sometimes gratifying. Having a very specialized awareness of something can set you off and you may have no way of knowing exactly how you are going to act. Unique Sensitivities, Personal Awareness. This is where grace comes in. Some of us may believe we are different. Some of us know better. I know what it's like to be distracting. So I choose to consciously not distract others. This is the place to come to get trained and educated.

                   This is so much information to learn. Getting to understand what it is that we want to able to understand, is a very forward looking proposition to learn and to accept the hardships of living. I'm ready. (But, Who am I trying to kid, I'm totally translucent, I am the Art of Living Fiction.)

                   I will be looking for more Persistent Higher Order Wave Forms on Projected Structures, Exotic Manifolds and Differential Fields. I'll be looking for Uniform Discontinuities in Higher Order Space, Asymptotic Aperiodic Oscillations and Prime Asymmetries. Dust.

Social Currency, Are You Flush?

                   Now days all the money is in the hands of (trusted?) institutions like the people who made these lovely computers, these corporations had to find ways to reward consumers with cheap transferable premiums. Interestingly this has come in the form of things even more ephemeral than paper credit. Social Media, Massive Public Domain and of course that infinitely renewable resource of "INFORMATION."

                   In Human Relations, and now in "Games Theory" a Social Currency translates into "Cred." In society we are always required to have to account for ourselves. Who are you? What do you do? Who do you know? And probably the most important and difficult, "What can you do for me?" A good reference is hard to come by.

                   Probably the most interesting and problematic element of being the "Pro" Psychic, is networking. Who should we trust? Word of mouth is hard to come by. I find using the web to network too much like buying a "pig in a poke." The poke in this case is a crate that you can't see into. I am always amazed at how quickly people are willing to turn over control to their computers when it comes to networking. I find that although it has become a preferred platform for business, it still seems pointlessly slow and inefficient. I find this especially trying when it comes to promoting marketable skills. It's never, "What can you do?" Instead it's always "Who gave you my number?" Self promotion in a society that is dominated by "Authoritation by Proxy," means that networking always comes down to getting "Cred" through someone else's authority.

                   As I'm always doing social searches, (Heart Hunting) my job also makes me the "Yenta," (Matchmaker.) People are always trying to get me to tell them what to do and what's going to happen. How I am going to help them get what they believe is supposed to be their destiny. Most of this is nothing more than matching a person's interests to their actual abilities. Realism is everything. A good reading is just like the right music. (Timing is everything.)

                   I got a new laptop to replace my ten year old Mac which has sensitive math files that wouldn't have survived the newer Operating Systems. So I got to go through the culture shock of the web all over again, for the third time now. First in "94" in college, then again in "2003" and now finally last year.  I went straight to you tube to listen to the music I had loved and I haven't left the music part of you tube yet. But when it came to new music, I wasn't finding anything I liked. I also hate ballads. My training partner thinks I'm full of beans for loving musical complexity. I am always searching and finding some new stuff that I like.

                  Finding music with the complex elegant song structure that had spoiled me back in the "50's" "60's" "70's" "80's" and "90's" has been an appetite hard to satisfy. In this auto tune, dub step, droning sound file endless tape loop, is marketed to the homogenized popular cultures of today. Nothing has really changed. So, just like with dating, I go on looking, asking friends, checking comment pages with similar interests and tastes. The amount of time that it takes to evolve personal tastes and experience is, just like dating, a potentially lifelong pursuit. I've had the privilege of an extensive liberal arts education and advanced musical training. I'm spoiled when it comes to all of the performance arts.

                  Beyond tastes, beyond genera, beyond milieu are the chops, skills and proofs of what it takes to get ahead, to be the best, to be current with the "Right Stuff." When it comes to playing the "Game," do you have the necessary "Social Currency?" Are You Flush? Are you able to invest and spend your Social Capital?

The Origins of Language and the Emergence of Art

                   "Solve et Coagula," Take apart and put back together. This formula is an analogy for Art. As a metaphor for problem solving using complex operations, we see many evolving sciences are described as Art forms. The Medical Arts, The Political Arts, The Martial Arts and my fave the Jovial Arts, (Yuck Yuck Yuck.) Many can say these aren't art, and in essence I would tend to agree. But Oh the creativity that goes into one of my readings is enough to tame the Devil himself, (and I do it routinely.)

                    Problem solved. Let's examine the problem:

                   Art is symptomatic of suffering.

                   Art is the curative medium.

                   All art entails an element of risk, uncertainty, exploration.

                   Art is preverbal.

                   Oh oh, I just wrote out 4 more propositional assertions. How do I go about proving this?

                   THE GREAT COALESCENCE     ("The Truth Is Out There." For every problem there is a solution, you just have to ask the right question, {Targeted Attention.)
 
                   Let's look at the mess I've already created. Do you get it? (Eh?) Do you even believe me? (Even less likely.) I'm not interested in promoting the occult as I believe it is nothing more than antiquarian rhetoric. But what of the rhetoric? My studies into the primitive origins of religion shows that the beginnings of prehistoric language are the result of rudimentary symbolic artifice, predating what we now call language. It's a kinda radical idea, and I'm no anthropologist, but I doubt I am alone.

                   People have been going to their (reliable?) family doctors for as long as we have had midwives. You can't make this stuff up. So if Art is an exploration into the unknown, (this is very threatening if we are really honest with ourselves,) we must have that innate capacity for wonder, for an instinct for uncertainty, (Looking outward, looking in?) Creating Gods, Ancestor Spirits, Religions of Reverence and Rituals of Function and Necessity are hardwired into our genetic memory as People. I jokingly refer to our species as the sacred naked snow monkeys, but I mean no disrespect to my tropical brethren. We are a Religious Animal.

                   The secret of Art, the secret of Medicine, the secret of Statesmanship, the secret of War, It's the secret to Comedy; It's the ability to open ourselves to the possible inevitability of an eventual "Truth," opening ourselves to that which we want to know. Art is dependent on the acceptance of this emergent possibility of an answer to an unknown to which we direct our attention. In this sense anything that requires an instinct or intuitive apprehension to understand could qualify as "Aesthetic." Art requires a suspension of judgement, if you already know the answer, if you already know what's going to happen, then it's not art. There are many important crafts and useful elements of the normal processes of selection in the course of everyone's daily life that can involve choice, but these are usually a matter of practical daily living and do not require constant critical sensitivity. Art does demand a total commitment. A commitment to wanting to Know.

                 I would suggest that it was the necessity for an "Object" relation to things outside of our preverbal awareness of self, that made art workable. Once we could define objects as having "associated" symbolic significances, (My mother is represented by that rock over there,) the evolution of a spoken, (and written) language was not far behind. Modern philosophers like to give the preeminence of language to be the defining humanization factor that is the all and end all of sentience (human self awareness.) But I still want to assert that humans may have created self referencing "Symbols" for the "Self" in the form of artifacts, before we had actual language. I could very likely be proven wrong.

Personally Correcting Your Political Computer

                   Not all "Speculations" are dire. But when I give in to joking, I'm drawn to the need for laughing through the pain.

                   I know that this blog is creating suspense, a potentially uncomfortable feeling of Cognitive Dissonance. My vague assay on vague assays. I'm not trying to be difficult. The uncertainties of modern life require honest disagreement.

                   Vladimir Putin wears makeup, he bans Pussy Rock and the Web, and invades Ukraine. The C. C. P. in China is loosing ground to itself in bloated bureaucracy while choking it's populace in smog. In the land of the "U. S." we spy on our friends and enemies alike, to a cost that refuses to be accounted for legitimately.

                  I have friends who pray that the Illuminati and the Aliens are still running things like they did back in the Fascist days. (I say, "We should be so lucky." At least we would know our enemy.) When I say to them "I don't care," I can feel their anger directed at me. I'm not afraid. I'm pissed off. The important issues are being lost to cultures of popular paranoia and mass indoctrination through fear mongering. Whose side are we on? The land of the free my ass. Free to be afraid, free to be lied to, free to abandon each other when we disagree.

                  This blog is designed to prove the viability of the soft "Spiritual Technologies." My open handed approach to these controversial subjects has allowed me inside information on the creative instincts of our modern "Speculators," (Doctors, Detectives, Stock Analysts, Scientific Researchers, and so on.) As most of my theoretical evidence has gone largely unnoticed, I've had the privilege to realize that if I'm serious about making this work available to the general public, I must hit bottom. I must abandon any pretense I may have of privacy or anonymity. I must allow the microscope to be turned back on me. There is no point in being a social critic. The web has taken care of that. People are numb now to the horrors of how the other half live, vicariously thrust into the eyes of everyone, regardless of personal or political biases.

                 I now have to turn my attention from analyzing the variabilities of distinguishing identifiable markers used by us psychics and intuitive diagnosticians alike, to the much greater purpose of mapping out the possible futures. It isn't going to be all good or bad. But if I am correct, it can, will and is being done. I've routinely teased my more pessimistic friends by calling their doomsaying "Scary Bedtime Stories." But, there is always the chance that they are right to be so negative. I hope that this blog is not so unpleasant as to disincline readers from wanting to explore these "Soft" technologies themselves.

Co Vectors and Conversation

                   Mirroring and feedback are two ways we give and receive directions from each other. We can also cue each other non verbally by expressions, gestures and by the changing the subject. Conversation is the most active region of mutually changing explorations into our shared co boundaries and differences. Psychics get an understandable bad rap for "Cold reading," (and for doing it very badly if I must say.) I personally like a certain amount of "Blind Study" that comes from doing a reading correctly. A deadpan response may not tell me when I'm right about somebody, but at least I don't have to tell people about things that are none of my business. As a process of "Mutual Boundary Exploration," I try to discourage repeat business. It always gets way too personal and I loose any "Blind" credibility I might have had when I didn't know that person.

                   The point of departure in a conversation, (just like with a good reading) starts with a question, issue or interest. Mutual language, interests and beliefs or experiences all form the platform from which the mutual exploration is directed. Most people have little or no experience with the use of statistical analysis as a scientific basis for an inductively intuitive diagnostic. As a result I could be just as phony and untrustworthy as any other psychic who is really just a clumsy "Cold Reader." (Most so called "Psychics" are definitely not even slightly psychic.) I prefer to say I'm a "Professional Psychic." Because whether there is such a real thing or not, I'm willing to play the game, and I'm very good at it. I love my work and I love the people I'm able to serve.

                  The irony of course is that we are all "Reading" each other all the time anyways, whether we know it or not. The most "Psychic" person I know is my training partner and of course he doesn't even believe in psychics at all. He's one of the only people I know who doesn't piss me off. He's that sensitive in an intelligent practical sensible sort of way. Our interests are as very different as are our distinctive personalities. He knows, interpersonally, I let him drive. His pacing and conversational tempo is fine with me although I can get really quite lost in the clouds. He's got his feet on the ground and we bring our own unique divergent perspectives. Plus he also has a background in statistics and resultantly we have very fertile rewarding discussions, point counter point on the issues I explore in my blog.

                Acting as a very polished parabolic mirror means I not only risk burning people with the focus of my critical sensitivities, but I'm also hated for knowing things that aren't my problem. Co vectors and Co Boundaries are just math terms to define relationships between objects and movement. If I want to explain what I'm doing, I first consider who I'm speaking to. You are someone who has control over the direction and the boundaries of our contact. That's the only way it should be. Very rarely do I ever defy anyone. Denials are for amateurs. I do have the right of refusal, and generally I don't let people know my business casually. I know that sounds weak, but If you really were psychic you would know why I choose to be sensitive to the directions that other people take.
         
                   

Peeling the Corner of the Sphere

                    The projection mapped onto the concentric layers of a (Riemann) sphere are a rare odd lattice formed from double, triple point nodes {3, 2} forming a high level of symmetry. These are stretched over the "corner." I want to make art that shows the kinds of structures and order in Hindu, Islamic and Christian architecture and ornament. These designs and patterning are far more sophisticated than our puny modern aesthetic allows. Not to mention the beautiful pre technological mathematics that was done without all the alienating "Symbolic Language." The symbols are in the Rose Windows, Flying Buttresses, Ribbed Vaults, Key Stones and Pointed Arches. Not to forget celestial domes and the sacred thresholds. We live at the gates of heaven and man does not see it.

The French Donut

Loving my Ghost of Gretchen

                   Gretchen is a spirit I found living in the soul of a beloved friend. I love them both, but were I serious about trying to talk to Gretchen I would be disrespecting my friend. My friend has slipped away again, I could tell she was getting tired of me. I want that she reads this and knows that I am truly sorry for being insensitive, she does not belong to me.
 
                   Gretchen is a matriarch of profound strength and intelligent beauty, as is my friend. She may never find this. But I know Gretchen can hear my heart calling. How can we be apart when she lives in me too. Her "Echo" is so deeply imprinted that I can feel her watching me walking across the room, getting out of bed, making my dinner, she is always in my thoughts. Of course I feel bad for my friend, she knows about Gretchen but doesn't understand why I can't miss someone when they are gone. So I am left here alone with the spirit of Gretchen and the "Echo" of my friend, who may never come back this time. My heart aches for the ones I love. How can I miss someone who is always in my heart, thoughts and prayers?

Storming the Gates / ENTER: The Languages of Exclusivity

                   If knowledge is an illuminating "Ivory Tower," then we may liken understanding to somewhere between a verdant valley and gloomy frozen pit. Men and Women, Spirit and Flesh, Light and Darkness, Good and Bad, Fire and Water. I DON"T AGREE! and I'm not alone. Fortunately, not all cultures agree with this dualistically biased arrangement of symbols. I had a close friend, (who insisted he had no friends,) who despised the overuse of trite symbols. I "Heart" alphabet soup, may be thought of as meaning something, but it is just colloquial. Languages are often very presumptuous. Ironically some of the most absurd misappropriations of our words and their meanings are thought to be sacred. (I "Heart" iconoclasm.)

                   "Authoritation by Proxy" will require "Authorization" by grammarians and linguists before it ever gets in to the dictionary. Although "Authoritation" is a much more accurate word to precisely define the process of externalized validation, try telling that to someone else. Generally, language and words must undergo "Objectification" before they become popular public currency. This, however, is decided exclusively by the popularization of elite cultures. Cultures in power, cultures for profit. Cultures of pain, mass denial and ignorance. This is where we get new language. Although everyone knows what I mean by "Authoritation," it's still not a word. Welcome to America, (Which in fact means the North and South American continents, but again, try telling that to someone here in the U. S.)

                    This is why I have focused in on the "Symbolic Languages," like math and poetry. "To some of us "Code Is Poetry."" "Everything is a metaphor." Psychic reading is an art form.

                    When we are talking about what I call the "Stretch Issues" like;
                                      1.) Non Violence,
                                      2.) Human Rights,
                                      3.) Globalism,
                                      4.) Secular Humanism,
                                      5.) and now "Complementarity,"
 I call them "Meta Branding" because of the critical extra importance of these popular contested issues, we see the differences of opinions stretched across the conflicts to be resolved. A.K.A New Language.

                    When we are told something isn't true, doesn't exist or is "Falsifiable," we're being condescended to. Notice the "Direction that the language takes. Sometimes it's true, we may be wrong. But we must also consider the possibility of a false authority talking down to us. As a reader I must be prepared to deal with "Cutting" language. I myself am not above condescending, though I try not to for the same reason I avoid lying. I'm frequently accused of being a fraud, the man "hiding behind the curtain." It's only by virtue of my powerful conquerer's instincts that I pursue these issues into the rational "Inevitable Eventuality of Being Truth." Come up from your gloomy pits of lonely understanding, out into the light and warmth of knowing. You are "The Emissaries of Joy." We're Storming the Gates of Pretentious Language Exclusivity. Language is yours. Use it.