A Spark of Life

 
                                                                   A Spark of Life

                          Understanding the cyclical nature of events is useful but when we want results we must consider finality. From the point of view for each and every person the concept of fate involves a kind of deterministic fatalism. Forgive me for talking to the elephant in the room. The most rational reason for wanting to shun any psychic is fatalism. It is very difficult to look at someones hands or eyes and to be able to see how and when they are going to die. Eventually, inevitably the spark of life does it's job. It sets the world on fire, it consumes the fuel that feeds that flame of being, and then is no more.

                           Were we to ever want to be a psychic, we hope for having good things to say to people. People say, "Tell me just the good things," or "Tell me everything, don't tell me just the good things." Rarely am I ever going to say anything bad, or else I'll try to frame someones defects in terms that are about a real life problem so that it doesn't have to be about them. Anybody who has had a bad life will have been dealt "A Bad Hand. That's not about them. Why blame someone for having been born with a genetic disease. (Easy to recognize.) Or what about the child of war, and or of poverty, domestic abuse or otherwise. These are often the same people who can do great good or evil. Just because someone is born healthy or rich doesn't mean they weren't traumatized as children and wont end up poor, sick or ill tempered. (Also easy to see.)

                           My Mom was both a very good mother and a "terrible mother." (Read: "THE GREAT MOTHER" An Analysis Of The Archetype, By Erich Neumann)

                           When I was very young Mom said;
"The Spark of Awareness is that thing that motivates us to want to live. Even if just for a short time. Life is so precious that even children that come into the world without being born have a will to exist." Mom called such children door knockers, because they ask to come into life but never get born. "Children born with illness are often unbelievably brave, for the same reason. She said, "Pity no one." From her wheel chair she said, "Do you think I want to be pitied?" "That person you're feeling sorry for, may experience joy's and happiness you could never imagine."

                          This is where it get's truly interesting, because life is in fact a precariously critical state, that "Spark of Life" is the only real causation. The world might be likened to closed room filled with explosive gas. The "Spark of Life" is sometimes the only thing that is needed to take a very stagnant situation and turn it over, clearing the room. This may seem like an odd thing to look forward to, but when you've seen as much death as I have, you learn to see the world as a cup overflowing. Add a pinch of social entropy and we are looking at a very stagnant and combustible society. A nobody like me can do great harm. When I was 23 I took a vow of harmlessness. With the kinds of tools and weapons I was having heaped upon me I had good cause to remain invisible.

                          I myself do not believe in "Fatalistic Determinism." Yet I must confess being able to predict peoples individual behaviors is way too easy. All you have to do is understand the unique peculiar quirks of a persons world view and then we become amazingly predictable. "What happened to free will?" you ask. Causation, if such a thing exists, is in that "Spark of Awareness." This cannot be controlled. "The Self Is Ubiquitous." We are everywhere. We are where we look. We are what we see. We are who we are and what we do.

                          This is by far the most unpleasant post I've written so far. Yet you should not have to mature as readers without understanding that bittersweet melancholy that drives us onward when it may seem like life has come to a dead end.