Living For a World We Will Not Survive to Enjoy? How can I find so much joy in such a contradictory statement ? In many ways I'm a very spiritually backward person. I do not believe in a personal God, and yet I believe one should never argue. I think meditation and prayer can make a person arrogant and spiritually clogged. I believe that the only real enlightenment is by necessity selfish. I myself do not have children and yet I care what happens to the world as if it's somehow about me. What's with that? How can someone as small minded as me see a realistic big picture, complete with workable answers. And I'm not just talking about overly simplistic rationalizations, but real substantive understandings. Reposted from: Thursday, April 25, 2013
1. Active deception, Showing Off, Lying, Phonyness, Bragging, Exaggeration, Hyperbole, etc.
2. Spacing out, Disengagement, Withdrawal, Omission, Vagueness, Aloofness, etc.
3. Condescension, Put downs, Dismissal, Negation, Passive Aggression, etc.
4. Over Compartmentalization, Inaccessibility, Burnout, Over Conscientiousness etc.
You probably recognize any or all of these evasions in yourself and or others. Some more than others. I'm showing the ways we confront or avoid the stresses of uncertainty. When in doubt, learned styles of evasion take over. A little Meta Formally Logical diagram to demonstrate;
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2. Spacing Out
^ ^ ^ 1. Lying + 3. Condescension v v v
4. Burnout
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At the center of this diagram is the uncertainties we all can evade, just in our own way. You will notice the symmetry and the two axis of polarity. Openness to these uncontrolled uncertainties is the mark of a truly open person. It is almost impossible to be open all the time. We have these evasions hardwired into our survival instincts. The next time you see someone being evasive, consider the source. They/We maybe feeling vulnerable.
The two axis are; Horizontally, Positive Misrepresentation of fact on the left side and the Negative Misrepresentation of emotions on the right side.
Vertically, Passive Evasion of responsibility on top and the Active Evasion of irresponsibility on the bottom.
No point in making a big deal about the why we behave this way, even if the emergence of this kind of soul symmetry is more than many of you are going to be willing to accept. Just know that when we evade, we use energy and that any real sensitive will know it. Show a little empathy. This is where I get to show a little tact.
2. Spacing out, Disengagement, Withdrawal, Omission, Vagueness, Aloofness, etc.
3. Condescension, Put downs, Dismissal, Negation, Passive Aggression, etc.
4. Over Compartmentalization, Inaccessibility, Burnout, Over Conscientiousness etc.
You probably recognize any or all of these evasions in yourself and or others. Some more than others. I'm showing the ways we confront or avoid the stresses of uncertainty. When in doubt, learned styles of evasion take over. A little Meta Formally Logical diagram to demonstrate;
> > >
2. Spacing Out
^ ^ ^ 1. Lying + 3. Condescension v v v
4. Burnout
< < <
At the center of this diagram is the uncertainties we all can evade, just in our own way. You will notice the symmetry and the two axis of polarity. Openness to these uncontrolled uncertainties is the mark of a truly open person. It is almost impossible to be open all the time. We have these evasions hardwired into our survival instincts. The next time you see someone being evasive, consider the source. They/We maybe feeling vulnerable.
The two axis are; Horizontally, Positive Misrepresentation of fact on the left side and the Negative Misrepresentation of emotions on the right side.
Vertically, Passive Evasion of responsibility on top and the Active Evasion of irresponsibility on the bottom.
No point in making a big deal about the why we behave this way, even if the emergence of this kind of soul symmetry is more than many of you are going to be willing to accept. Just know that when we evade, we use energy and that any real sensitive will know it. Show a little empathy. This is where I get to show a little tact.
And as to why such a nobody as me would be visited upon by such graces, I don't have the answer for it. In spite of the obvious absurdity of the compassion I've witnessed blessing me, this imperfect vessel, I don't even think the question of worthiness is valid. Spirituality is not a competitive sport. The survival of this planet and being itself isn't Candy Land. Many of the people who knew me as the mad hermit hunchback of Lake St. now begrudge me my recovery. I'm resented for getting to dance in the dialectic of delight, removing me from a life of personal suffering that had been my lot. I really would have to be insane to not want to share my joy and happiness, even if it is only for the while.
My release from frustration, release from unhappiness, even if this is only temporary. But even the physicists of today have resigned themselves to needing to accept that there are major holes in their theories. Knowing that if experiments can still support what they believe to be true for now, the bigger questions may yet still be answered,......, maybe.
And what if the dream of my life has been to ponder the answers to these deepest, most meaningful of all of humanities problems. Far be it from me to disgrace this vision of beauty, of understanding, of forgiveness, by thinking that I'm too imperfect. Blah, Blah, Blah. I have been blessed. Oh yes.
