Writing a blog with that inevitable infinite scroll is one of the most awkward and productive ways I could have approached the challenge of bringing my life work to publish. The Chinese physicians look at manic depression as a fact of life rather than just a disease to be eliminated. I don't know what I'm going to write until the ideas are ready to be put to words. In the previous clumsy post, I repost a page on, "Styles of Evasion," written back in April. My views on the true shape of the human consciousness, as it is formed by our approach of uncertainties is particularly unflattering and it seems it's misunderstood by most people no matter how I frame it. But I do believe that, providence allowing, I will get it right during my life and that sooner or later it will be easily understood.
My teacher had told me, "The Flying Sickness isn't really considered a sickness" "It was taken to be proof of divinity." "If the person is able to survive past fifty, (and I have) the person is usually a boon to the people." Unsaid of course is the fact that no matter how fruitful the flights of reason or passions may be, the hazards for mania are overwhelming and often very tragic. I'm extremely blessed with a stubborn rational will, an intense philosophical opposition to self destructive suicide and a conqueror's instincts. Add an optimistic outlook and a winning attitude, and all of those decades or depression, I've become well suited for understanding people and the human dilemma. Hence when I'm writing about human "Styles of Evasion" I'm not focusing on the bad. Actually I'm trying to show what it is that makes us over shoot the good. The anxieties that we people feel about inevitable uncertainties often drive people to do very indirect and dysfunctional things. Oddly enough however at the center of these evasions is that essential good in everyone, the need to approach the unknown. At the center of the field of perspective is the truth, and the truth is in the future. ALWAYS! and it's always getting closer!
